144 hours has passed and I’m still nicotine free…. it feels really great. I realise I wake up without the killer breath I use to have.
I’m starting to cough pretty badly from the 2nd day without cigarettes and its not getting any better but worst. Every morning I wake with phelgm in my throat waiting to be expel. My hacking cough has gotten so bad that its painful to cough, my lungs feels like its bursting, my eyeballs and brains were in pain everytime I cough…. and I’ve successfully associated all those pain of coughing to the cause of smoking.
The phelgm looks awful, but I’m glad I’m purging them out of my system now, rather then keeping them in my body. Everytime that little voice in my head suggest going back to smoking so I could stop the pain and cough, I head straight into my toilet, where I still keep the last ashtray, with more that 20 cigarette butts in it…. and I’ll stare hard at it, put it close to my nose and inhale the stinking smell of ashes, and tell my little voice … yeah…. you want to put this in your lungs, does it smells good? It makes me wanna puke just smelling those ashes, and I’ll be so disgusted with the thought of smoking ever again. I’ve also programmed my mind that if I want to pick up smoking again, I can, but I’ll have to eat all those cigarettes butts first… I mean literally EATING them, ha ha….
So far so good, I’ve been associating so much pain in smoking and so much pleasure in not smoking… better breathe, saving more money, not having to look for a smoking area, feeling healthier etc etc…. but I’m still coughing badly and have lost 3 kgs since I quit. It kind of reverse from what I had learned, that smoking slowed down body metabolism and most people who quits will gain weight.
Once this cough is over, I’ll have to start working on gaining back my 3kg. Till I write again… and for everyone out there that is trying to quit or contemplating to do so, wait no longer. Associate so much pain in your emotions with smoking, and associate so much pleasure without smoking and you’ll be off to a good start.
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